Saturday, October 22, 2016

Quiet Time.

“This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy.” ― Susan Polis Schutz

Thinking out loud.

I don't mind creating at all. It's the rest of it that gets me. I've done this for so long that I have grown tired. The very reason why my shipping is not faster than what it has been. I dread packing and shipping. I shouldn't say this out loud but I trust you won't judge somebody being candid about what's not their forte. I want a robot that does not speak to work for me, doing these menial but necessary tasks.

I think about the way sites like Redbubble, S6, Zazzle, Spoonflower, etc work...what a concept...they are a warehouse that takes care of artist's inventory. They have the store, they manage all the sales and they ship. All the artist has to do is to create. There, the ideal situation. Sure, those sites house digital work, not a warehouse full of paintings and physical items for sale, but if that was possible...if artists could just paint physical paintings, then take their work someplace, then let the place take care of the packing and shipping when the items sell, that's a magical idea. That's kind of what I need, but it's not available yet.

And when you are an introvert that shies away from people, it gets hard to even hire the teenage neighbor to do it for you, since you have to delegate, speak, and direct - and those are also not your forte. :o

So here we go: I failed to ship yesterday. Simply forgot, because something else came up, and I forgot to look at my to-do list for the day.

What a combo of quirks I am. I'm a woman, artist, Brazilian (those who know us, know why I added this as a "quality"), introvert, on the high spectrum of HSP scale, Gemini (air...good for creating, bad for "real life" stuffs), Aries rising (fire...I just can't stop!), and a loner. I tell ya, it has taken years for me to navigate my own self, and so much more to discover. I understand how confusing it can be for one particular person that has to live with me. lol  But everyone is different and everyone has quirks too.

I used to think: "someday it will all fall together and I will read all of these books", or "go traveling the world", and have of grandiose visions of what life could be. Over the years, I began to drop many of these "plans" because I understood that life has to be lived much more in the moment than in the planning part; it's more about responding to what is than to stressing over what possibly never will be - because planning can so often fall by the wayside when facing facts we never guessed would happen, that makes us take a different turn than previously planned. Everything is constantly changing, though we don't perceive that to be, as we are always carrying around such busy thinking minds!

I dropped many silly things I wanted to do, replaced by things I always have wanted, that got hidden over the years by "things that happened". Close to turning 50, I noticed, memories of childhood and things about myself began to pop in my mind. How odd. I would be doing something and a memory would knock. They came propelled by color combinations, smells, things people did or said, or dreams I had at night. I find it fascinating how I had consciously forgotten some of these things that came back on their own. And what is coming back is being heard. I absolutely honor and recognize that the content of what's coming back is coming back to heal or fill in something I need, something I have ASKED for inside my heart, repeatedly. I always remember and tell people that sometimes, something is not coming to you because you need to ASK. Either loud or inside yourself, things seem to need your permission to manifest. Or your permission to stay. Your permission, your allowance, is also, by default, necessary for manifestation because it's you opening the "gates" and saying "YES", instead of fearing this won't happen (which is fear-based resistance), which only keeps us stuck.

I am learning. I am happy to be learning new ways.
The secret to it, though, is always in the practice.
You can only change what you practice.
That is for everything.
We forget how much we practice behavior that brings more undesired results, then we blame others, or life, or fate. But we forget the *allowance" we offered for that to manifest.
Think about it.


Friday, October 21, 2016

New on Etsy.

I have lowered my prices on Etsy and mostly all items are on SALE. Also listing more things...have inventory in the studio that I want to let go. So please keep an eye in my shop you are interested. Thanks!

Monday, October 10, 2016

Sendak and the process of creating "Where The Wild Things Are".

Maurice Sendak Studio Apartment Interview - 1966

Getting To Know Maurice Sendak (1985 interview / short documentary)

Tuesday, October 4, 2016